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Hello darlings.
I don't know why but I feel the need to write a journal.
I'm not even completely sure why I'm doing this because my life is pretty normal right now.
I just have this need to express my religious values right now?? I know that's not popular in many circles.
It's this feeling I have that I'm being full-like my heart is full. I can't describe it in any way other than...I feel like my personality is being returned to the way I viewed the world as a child. As a child, I was very loving and accepting. I never had enemies because I loved everyone. It's stupid...but not. You'd be surprised how much better you can feel when you feel a presence of love around you...which is exactly what I feel at BYU. Everybody cares about each other here. There's this thing called home teaching where two people come to your house and give you a brief religious teaching and they check in on you. Last night they came over (they do it once a month) and it was the first time I had a home teaching. It was literally exactly what I needed. I had been legitimately crying for a few hours because I felt lonely. I really really really miss my boyfriend and he really really really misses me too and it's been hard for us. I've been second guessing my decision to go here because I miss him that bad- the thing is I know I made the right choice. I know I belong here. I'd be lieing if I said I thought the people here were crazies and I hate them. I really love them. Their culture is so beautiful. It's a culture based on Jesus and really what more could you want? Okay...maybe if they didn't think their church was the only true church. That gets kind of annoying because I'm a bit of a nondenomination Christian. I have a very distinct religious belief that all religions are correct in their own way. Paradoxical? Yeah I know. I'm maybe the crazy one. I don't know. I just really like religion. I really relate to Piscene from Life of Pi. Constantly. That is my life.
Goodbye darlings.
This has been a bunch of rambling and it's probably incoherent but I'm not editing it because I have to go to bed.
Okay g'night.
I don't know why but I feel the need to write a journal.
I'm not even completely sure why I'm doing this because my life is pretty normal right now.
I just have this need to express my religious values right now?? I know that's not popular in many circles.
It's this feeling I have that I'm being full-like my heart is full. I can't describe it in any way other than...I feel like my personality is being returned to the way I viewed the world as a child. As a child, I was very loving and accepting. I never had enemies because I loved everyone. It's stupid...but not. You'd be surprised how much better you can feel when you feel a presence of love around you...which is exactly what I feel at BYU. Everybody cares about each other here. There's this thing called home teaching where two people come to your house and give you a brief religious teaching and they check in on you. Last night they came over (they do it once a month) and it was the first time I had a home teaching. It was literally exactly what I needed. I had been legitimately crying for a few hours because I felt lonely. I really really really miss my boyfriend and he really really really misses me too and it's been hard for us. I've been second guessing my decision to go here because I miss him that bad- the thing is I know I made the right choice. I know I belong here. I'd be lieing if I said I thought the people here were crazies and I hate them. I really love them. Their culture is so beautiful. It's a culture based on Jesus and really what more could you want? Okay...maybe if they didn't think their church was the only true church. That gets kind of annoying because I'm a bit of a nondenomination Christian. I have a very distinct religious belief that all religions are correct in their own way. Paradoxical? Yeah I know. I'm maybe the crazy one. I don't know. I just really like religion. I really relate to Piscene from Life of Pi. Constantly. That is my life.
Goodbye darlings.
This has been a bunch of rambling and it's probably incoherent but I'm not editing it because I have to go to bed.
Okay g'night.
Ok what's new in my life
-officially registered for classes at ndsu
-got job as childcare sub at YMCA
-drivers test scheduled for august which yknow i can drive but dont have my license figured i should go do that
yep that is an update on my life thought everyone should know
Killed by my own poison
I saw a quote on tumblr that said "College is kind of like wiping out on your own banana peel in Mariokart"
and I laughed at first but then I realized how close that hit to home
Like
MMMmmmmkay I worked hard as an A/B student for many a year in my small childhood
Like I worked my ass off
But in the end it gets you to college where you have to work your ass off even more
This is great and all. Like mmmyeah sure if I survive this I will end up with a career that pays around 100k a year soooo
yay for me
But it's kind of difficult for my because for the past threeish years I've been going through this personality change
(honestly puberty
Am I a Mary Sue???
(probably not)
TheCreatorOfSoften had a lovely idea to apply a mary sue test to herself and I thought it was really fun to read...so I'm going to have more fun and do one myself. You can find hers here:
Alright, let's do this.
Mary Sue/Gary Stu test:
Appearance
[x] They have a rare hair/fur colour (I have a random dime size patch of red hair)
[] Their eyes are an unusual colour
[] This happens to be red
[x] Their eyes change colour (Hazel eyes do change color, but that's just because different colors reflect differently in different types of light, such is the nature of color.)
[] (if a female) they have large boobs (MORE LIKE TH
Alone in Mormonland
How do I even condense the past week down into one journal??? AaAA where to begin.
Okay so I officially left Fargo on the 19th. Saying goodbye to my cat was a sad time. I think she agrees. How we said goodbye? I petted her. She licked me. I pet her again. She bit me.
My whole family flew down to SLC Airport and then down to Las Vegas. I actually got to meet one of my 30 year old online friends for breakfast in the hotel the next morning. That was so much fun. If anyone says to you that online friends aren't real friends, throw a computer at their face and ask if that wasn't real.
We spent the next week driving up through the desert to tour
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